I have been going to Spanish tutoring twice a week and then going to the Spanish Speaking Lab once a week for a while. The speaking part has ALWAYS been my struggle! I leave the tutoring center and the Speaking Lab wanting to cry because I am so discouraged about my progress. I really have the desire to be fluent in Spanish. I am absolutely determined, and when I don't measure up, I am really hard on myself.
Today, however, I went into tutoring without any grammar principle to talk about. My amazing, amazing tutor, Jeff, taught me a bit about the principles that we are going to be going over in the next chapter for class and then I practiced speaking for the rest of the time. It took me a while to get my Spanish brain on, but when it was on ... it was on.
Suddenly, I just was able to say what I was thinking. It wasn't embarrassing for me when I didn't know a word. It wasn't even close to being a terrifying and discouraging event. Instead, I could speak. I felt my tongue loosened. Holy cow it was an incredible feeling. I know that I am going to have language issues in Chile and Mexico ... I have already accepted that! I know it is going to be hard. But I have already progressed SOOOO much from where I was at the beginning of the semester when I was afraid to even say, "me llamo ...". Isn't that amazing?? Heavenly Father has been helping me soooo much! I am super grateful for that! Puedo hacer todas cosas!