My mom has been asking me to blog quite frequently the past couple of weeks. I don't know why, but I have really been out of the blogging mood recently. Ah, well. This one's for you, Mom.
Today I took my last final for school this year. I can't believe it. I think back to who I was a year ago, maybe even six months ago, and I feel like I was such a baby. Such a youngster. This year of school has given me such a perspective on life. It's pushed me from anxious student to (mostly) relaxed and well-rounded young adult. I really don't feel old yet. I recognize that I am not ready to leave the house and be totally independent, but I feel significantly more developed than I think I have ever felt in my life.
It's kind of a scary feeling.
My dad and I went to Utah during General Conference weekend to visit some friends and to see General Conference (go figure). While we were there, I suggested that we double purpose our trip. I have been wanting to go up to Rexburg for a couple of years now to look at BYU-I. I really have felt like this school would be THE ONE. But when I got to Rexburg, there was no trumpeting of angelic messengers, nor was there a burst of lightning. I realized that I haven't really been open to any other college but BYU-I (even though it's a great school and I think we could go together like PB&J).
That was a scary realization as well. My future is open. I might not even know my future husband right now. I might not know where I'm going to school. I certainly have no idea what I am going to major in. I feel like the blissful shades of youth are slowly melting off my face. I have no clue what is going to happen in my life.
So, what do I do now?
School is out and that makes me a little anxious. Slowly, I have been liberating my days from obligations. I am trying to fill my days with reading and sunshine and jogging. But I guess now my big trial is to learn how to be content. That, I think, is going to be the big cherry on top of the lovely piece of pie that has been my homeschooling journey.
Come what may and love it!