Sunday always has these lessons that I feel like are for me. I always seems to come out of these classes with something that I need to try to do better, and I am really grateful for that.
If you haven't noticed, I've been a little more weepy and woe-is-me than I usually am. Usually, I am NEVER this way -- I mean, I try to always look on the bright side and see the glass half full. So, while I have been struggling with my funky attitude, I realized that I needed to start praying and searching to find out what I was doing wrong in my life to make me feel that way. So I started going down the list ...
Am I in love with anyone? (Usually that's the first sign of distention for me, but in this case it is a NO.)
Am I reading the scriptures and praying daily? (Yeah, which is why I was kinda worried that I wasn't happy.)
Do I feel good about myself? Do I realize what I have? BIIIIIIIIINGO!
I have been so greedy recently. I scarcely ever realize how much I have -- how much I have been blessed with. And because of that small detail, I have been pretty blinded by what others have and how much I want to emulate them.
Which brings us to today's lesson --
HONESTY - Cue dramatic music -
Really, this lesson wasn't anything new. You don't tell lies ... You are a woman of integrity. I've heard that before and I try to do the best I can at that. But then Sister N started talking about how you can lie by coveting. Oh my! It really made me think!! Am I putting to much emphasis on what I like in others rather than what I like in myself? The answer is obviously a big fat YES! Do I often want talents, but I don't take the time to develop them? Also a YES. I think I have started to realize this pattern that I get myself into, similar to the pride cycle, but it's more like the COVET CYCLE. It goes a little like this