sunday's best: repentance

D&C 19: 15-16
For behold, I, God, have suffered these things for ALL that they might not suffer if they would repent.
But if they would not repent, they must suffer even as I.

Once again, I had a hard time getting anything out of our earlier church segments today because I was in charge of keeping baby Q happy. I knew there was a lot about fatherhood ... and the priesthood ... and there were little children singing on the "stage." OH! Maybe, just maybe, these things happened because it's Father's Day on this fine summer day.

Before I get really in depth about how AWESOME church was today, I just wanna say, I LOVE MY PARENTS! And I love my dad. Even though I am never the perfect daughter, I always know that I can return to my home and feel wanted and loved. Similar to that ...

I know that I can turn to my Heavenly Father and feel just as much love! Today's YW lesson was about repentance, and I just have to say, I don't know very much when it comes to this concept. Sister Henderson, our new Laurel adviser, uttered quite the paradox today, which I thought was pretty deep and thought provoking. This wise, wise woman said, "The more you learn about repentance, the less you know."

As I have been progressing throughout my life, repentance has been kind of the "text book" answer. I know about repentance. I know we should do it. I know that there are five sure-fire steps to sincere repentance. But besides that, my mind is always boggled. I hear the "be ye therefore perfect," and I freeze up, seeing as I am a pretty big perfectionist.

So, I felt like I needed this lesson today. Not because I have been committing some serious sins, but because I know so little. I feel woefully ignorant. Or felt. Although I didn't learn the five-steps to repentance today, I felt like I learned just a little bit more about how I need to personally repent.

Sister Henderson spoke of the need to change ... to go to our own Gethsemane to define what Christ really did for us. That was something that seemed to gently punch me in the face. As I pictured my own Gethsemane, I could see ... I could picture but I could not comprehend. Why would anyone want to suffer for me? We then flipped (I flipped through my lovely new scriptures that I got on Friday) to the verse in D&C referenced above and I learned a little ... and knew a little bit less.

I won't go too into depth ... maybe I actually already have, but I learned a lot from what I felt. It was very cleansing and healing simultaneously.

On a much lighter note, while I was stalking some blogs I love, I came across a lovely little post by my previous Laurel adviser, Sis. Stockhoff. She posted a video that I ADORE ... so, here it is!

Love Always,